Walking By Faith
Did you ever feel like you saw so much for yourself and for your future but didn't have a clue on how to get there. Well this has been the road I've been on for about the last year or two. I was uncomfortable with where I was and what I was doing in a couple of areas of my life. I remembered the dreams I had stored up for many years and had an thought that this might be the time to begin to work on them.
I had a desire to see them fulfilled but didn't have a desire to do what I used to do in pursuing my goals.It just seemed like too much emotional work that i no longer wanted to do. I used to put things on my radar, make plans and goals and then feel overwhelmed and seriously behind the whole time as i tried to bring the dream into reality. I was always fielding thoughts of insecurity because there were so many others more talented and equipped for similar things. Everything was different this time though. I was different. In my Spirit I sensed to still set my goals and make my connections but there was no stress this time. Somewhere along my path I had learned to let go now. If the things in my heart were going to come to pass it was going to be God opening the doors and not me. And if it didn't happen then I'd do something else. I wasn't so attached to it all this time. There was a huge burden of worry, anxiety and stress taken off my shoulders. I believe any dreams in my heart, any gifts and talents I may have are God given so if He put them in my heart then He is going to have to bring them to pass. I just have to prepare and walk through them.
In Proverbs 18:16 it says "That a man's gift makes room for him...". I was now at a place to start believing that. When I was younger I think my pride was on the line in whatever I endeavored. If I failed then what does that say about me? I don't want to look foolish or feel embarrassed. At this stage in my life I no longer care about that. (How I wish I would have learned this when I was younger.) I know who I am and what I know and I no longer have anything to prove to myself or anyone else. I am now free to just pursue and explore different opportunities and see where they lead and what doors God opens up through my gifts. There's no time frames and no stress. It will happen when it happens and if it's supposed to happen it will.
With excitement I look to my future leaving behind the anxiety I once carried. I stand on Isaiah 54:4 That says "Do not be afraid because you will not be put to shame". So I no longer carry the fear of embarrassment either. And in Ecclesiastes 3 it says " There is a time for everything..." There is such freedom and peace in saying "It will happen when it's supposed to happen" and let go of that rushed feeling. In a world where there are people with immeasurable talents and drive who seem to be on fast forward to success, It's such a relief to find this state of being, knowing you're not in a race and in competition with no one else. You can stay in your own lane and enjoy the ride.